Thursday, October 7, 2010

For ME.

A lot of people see blogs as a way of communicating with family and friends, sharing their news, or telling people about their lives.... Not me. Well, I use it for those same reasons, but even more so as a way of organizing my thoughts. Most people just "write it out". However, I prefer to "BLOG it out". Probably due to the fact that I type sooo much faster than I write and it's easier to get my thoughts down quickly.

Have you ever been bored out of your mind? So, what do you do? Play a movie! And then, suddenly, you get really tired.... Why is that?! You were completely awake 5 minutes ago! And the movie really isn't that bad! WHY?!

It's research time....

We Need Each Other

If you know me, you'd know that I love lyrics. Here's a song that's been on my mind for a while now... "We Need Each Other" by Sanctus Real.

I think I caught a glimpse of life without friends.
Bitter, empty, hollow, dark and lonely.
We never meant to hurt each other, so can’t we trust again?
And take it as a chance to keep on growing.

I don’t know why it doesn’t come easy,
But I know that we could be happy
If we’d only learn to love.

We need each other,
So what’s the fighting for?
We need each other,
Please don’t close the door.
We need each other,
Through all the highs and lows.
We need each other,
‘Coz no one’s meant to live alone.

Life revolves around the need of having someone
Causing every complicated feeling and I don’t want to loose you
And there is nothing wrong with telling me what you need
To keep our love strong.

It’s just a part of being a family,
Taking the good with the bad and the ugly,
If we could only learn to love.

We need each other,
So what’s the fighting for?
We need each other,
Please don’t close the door.
We need each other,
Through all the highs and lows.
We need each other,
‘Coz I don’t want to be alone.

We need each other.
Fathers and Mothers.
We need each other.
All your sisters and brothers.
We need each other.
We need friends and lovers.
We need each other.

Well I need you, you need me
‘Coz that’s the way it’s meant to be.
I need you.
We need each other.
I don’t want to be alone.

Well I need you, you need me
‘Coz that’s the way it’s meant to be.
I need you.
We need each other.
I don’t want to be alone.


Thank you to all my friends. The friends I'll have to the end. The friends through thick and thin. The friends through troubles and celebrations. Thank you for being there for me. For teaching me. Helping me grow. Helping me learn about myself....
Words just can't express. But what I CAN say is... Thank you. And I will always be there for you.

Note to Self

Note to Self....

Everyone thinks differently. No one is going to be the exact same as you. You may communicate in a certain way, but just because you do, doesn't mean that someone else is going to understand you. When helping someone with a problem, remember that their experience is different than yours was. They're a different person with different emotions. Don't tell them what you always wanted to hear from your friends. Tell them what's best for THEM.

That is all.

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Thoughts...

I have a lot on my mind... But I'm not sure what I'm thinking. My mind's just... heavy? fuzzy? distracted? How am I supposed to unload it all if I don't even know what's going on in there? Maybe elves have taken over my brain and are- no. Let's not go into theories. Let's just accept that fact that my mind works in mysterious ways.

I have a feeling I'm going to be, or supposed to be, figuring something out about myself... Have you ever had that feeling? Like something is going to happen (not necessarily bad) but something that will make you think. Something that's going to help you see yourself better. Help you to know more about yourself. I don't know, maybe I'm crazy. Maybe I'm just having a headache and thinking about it a little too much. But you can never be to sure.

So much has happened this past month. I have my wonderful boyfriend and everything with him is just great. But at the same time, I've been arguing with my best friend about random nonsense that shouldn't mean anything. It could just be my girly mood swings getting to me.... But I don't know. People tell me that when you get into a relationship, things change. Your friendships. Your relationships with family. Your schoolwork. Everything. I refused to believe it at first, but now, I think I see where they were coming from. But, I don't feel like it's a bad change. It's a realistic change. One that might be needed. I don't think I'll really know until later. But, as of right now, I'm liking it....

I find that other people's relationship "drama" used to be interesting to me. I wanted to help them, hear their stories, soak in the emotion. But now that I'm in my own relationship, I hate to say it, but I don't want to hear about everyone else. I know, I know. That sounds really conceited. But now I have my OWN relationship to worry about. Not that there's anything to worry about at this point. I guess I don't really know what it is. I... I just don't want to hear about everybody else. This is a new experience for me. And so far it's been a wonderful one. It will definitely be a journey.

Maybe school is on my mind? But I don't think that's it. School isn't really ever on my mind. Especially while I'm on break. It's normally swept to the side and hidden underneath the carpet.

Although, this past week has been filled with thinking. And thinking about the future. College. Life. Marriage. Family. Friends. Mission. Church. Purpose. Career. There's so much to think about. I'm becoming a senior next year, and after that, college. I'm not ready! I don't even know what I want to major in or what I want to do with my life. I wish there was an easy button for all of this. I need a job and money. It's not going to pay for itself. I know it seems like it's far away... but I need to start preparing now.

I'm not exactly sure what's going through my head. But if you ever see me and I'm sitting there quietly, there's nothing wrong. I promise. I'm just thinking. About everything. Maybe you should do the same.

Just Blogging it Out

What do you do when it seems like there's nothing else? BLOG.
But what to write???

Well, I could start out by updating you on my life since I last posted. That last advice I asked about: I figured out what to do! I don't know why it was so hard for me either. After more months of sitting back and watching, I realized how much this was hurting me. Was I gonna let this one indecisive guy take control of my emotions like this? NO! So... it was as easy as walking up and saying, "What's going on? Cause I'm really confused right now." And it was solved the next day by this wonderful guy asking me out.
Now, how did he do it? That's a great question to ask. Let me fill you in. Guys out there? Take notes.

It began with a note. Yes, a note. Now, if you just saw this note you'd be thinking, "Really? This guy has no class whatsoever. He's gonna ask me out... through a note. Ew." But this was not just any note. It was a game, and the note was the instructions. WHOA! Alright, opening this note (and yes, jumping a little inside) I pulled out my instructions for the day.

I was required to open the first of many notes during my second period class. (And if you know me, you'd know that I'm an extremely impatient person.) But I overcame the struggle.... At the beginning was a rhyme, hinting me to someone holding the next note. Now, these were EXTREMELY clever. Not just clever. HILARIOUS! hints. And at the bottom of the note? There was a paragraph saying some of the things that he liked about me.

The last note I received hinted to go to Brad. So, gaining the courage to confront this suitor and finish the game, I went for it. Brad handed me a card and inside were three hearts: red, purple, and black. Of course each had a meaning. Red: Girlfriend. Purple: Just friends. Black: You want NOTHING to do with me. I almost gave him the black heart as a joke, but it wasn't found (where it went, hmm... that's still a mystery. He later told me he didn't put it in there because he didn't want me to pick that option. haha!) Of course I handed him the red heart and then, getting down on one knee, Brad asked "Dearest Molly of mine, will you be my girlfriend?" How could anyone resist THAT?! OF COURSE!

And thus, that day, September 8th, was the best day ever....